Happiness

This past week has been an emonital l roller coaster for David and I, mainly the stress was all on me and not so much on David. I am coming down to the last five classes in my degree program at school; I have spent four and half years working my tail off at school getting good grades. And plugging through classes that I just really don't get or understand! Until now I have done extremely well at school and I have been pleased with myself. Until I got the professor from he double hockey sticks that is doing his best to flunk me. This is a finanace class and I know it's not an easy task for most people, but this is a special excpetion here!!! He expects all of our assingments done in excel, I can creat a spreadsheet but I do not understand excel functions..... he accused me of cheating on an assingment and gave me zero points for it, and when I told him this past week that I had a miscarriage and I wouldn't be in class he was not willing to give me an extension on the assingment and only gave me 3 points on the assingment. We have team assingments they help a very small amount and right now I have an "F" in this class..... UGH!!! All becasue I complained and complained and complained to the DEAN and who ever else would listen to me... he not only accused me but 11 other people of cheating on our assingments. And this is what I get in return not grading paper's fairly!! So their is one part of my stress the second part was my miscarriage..... David and I have been trying to get pregnant for almsot two years now, we are going through fertility treatments and we havent been successful... SO we thought .... and then last Sunday I knew something wasn't right and I just kept pushing it off as that it was my meds working through my cycle...... and Monday it got worse and Dave had enough and took me in... and well I was two months prengnant but all the stress of the week before I just couldn't hold on to it this time... :( Their were other stresses this past week... and all i wanted to do is lay down and sleep and recover do you honstly think that anyone in this world would let me do that??? NOPE!!! Not with my day job, not with Tupperware, not with Girl Scouts, not with family, not with anything...... So to say that I recovered and I am rested is nothing short of a lie and I do't lie...... So who knows if I will get their this week... But I do know that I have come to peace and understanding of what the lords work is and I can live with that for the time being!!! On a happier note I have been sticking to weight watchers like I am suppsoed to and becasue of all this stress I lost 6lbs this past week!! YEAH ME!!! Only 45 lbs to go!!!